We have a preschool graduatešŸ„¹šŸ˜­šŸ’—āœØ Elsie We have a preschool graduatešŸ„¹šŸ˜­šŸ’—āœØ

Elsie is our sunshine girl and it was sooooo fitting seeing her sing this little light of mine during her graduationā˜€ļø Our hearts are literally so full for Elsie and her love of school and learning!! I was SO scared to send Elsie to school and while there were some growing pains the first few weeks she adores her teacher and friends at school! She looked forward to going each day and loved sharing all of the things she learned with us🄹 I’m so grateful for the amazing school she attended and all the people that worked hard to make it such a positive experience for heršŸ˜­ā¤ļø She is so ready for kindergarten even if I’m dying a little inside at the thought of her being in elementary schoolšŸ™ˆ SO PROUD OF HER!! She is a light and will continue to be one at her new school too!!
2 years since the last time I dreamed of our life 2 years since the last time I dreamed of our life with them in itšŸ¤šŸ¤

2 years ago I sat through my appointment absolutely numb. Having given all that I could physically, mentally, financially, and spiritually I quite literally had hit rock bottom. I’ll never forget curling up on our bathroom floor once we got home and telling Hudson I hated myself. I absolutely meant every word. I’ve never felt like more of a failure than I did at that point in my life. Looking back my heart breaks thinking about just how responsible I felt.

I’ve learning that it wasn’t my fault. Nothing I could have done would have changed the outcome. It wasn’t some punishment. It wasn’t because I didn’t take my prenatal that one day. It happened and I’ll never understand why that had to be our story. That’s ok. I’ve learned that understanding ā€œwhyā€ isn’t a prerequisite to healing. 

There is a unique healing that has come through pregnancy with Della. Initially every fiber of me felt like I couldn’t do it. I couldn’t for them so why could I for her? Learning to hope again, sit with my fears, and make peace with the unknown has been an ongoing process for mešŸ¤ I learned that my body was still capable of beautiful things. Loss didn’t make that any less true. They changed me. Loosing them changed me. I am who I am because of them✨ It still hurts but I’m grateful for where I am today. They will always be my favorite what ifšŸ¤šŸ¤
Boat Babiesā˜€ļøšŸŒŠ Elsie on a boat is a total Boat Babiesā˜€ļøšŸŒŠ

Elsie on a boat is a total vibešŸ˜‚ She could stay out on the boat allllllll day long!!! Her new fav is tubing which is a big step up from last yearšŸ˜ And she even went surfing with dad🄰 Della is happiest when the boat is moving and has noooooo problem catching a few😓 Summer time is our fav and we are loving it so faršŸ¤
Life lately✨ ZoošŸ¦’ Gardening🌽 Swimming🌊 Life lately✨

ZoošŸ¦’ Gardening🌽 Swimming🌊 SisterhoodšŸ’• FiresšŸ”„ Cuddles🄰 Cotton CandyšŸ’— and Family🄹 Love this life of mineā¤ļøšŸ’•
Full Heart Full Houseā¤ļøšŸ’• I learned many ye Full Heart Full Houseā¤ļøšŸ’•

I learned many years ago that a full heart is where it begins… a heart of gratitude comes first. I don’t think I would have been able to enjoy motherhood if I hadn’t learned to have peace and love within myself firstšŸ’— Balancing life the last few months hasn’t been easy and there have been several tears as I’ve learned to find my new sense of normalšŸ˜… But I’ve been reminded that I’m only the best I can be when my heart is full🄹 So for the struggling mama I hope you can find time to rest, refuel, reflect and remember that your cup needs filled too so you can enjoy and savor the full home tooā¤ļø #motherhood Idaho #girlmom #maternalmentalhealth #idahotherapist #postpartumjourney #postpartumsupport
This season is full of intention…. Learning how This season is full of intention….

Learning how to be a mom of 2 littles + finishing up my masters degree + being a wife has been a big mindset shift for mešŸ¤ Gone are the easy date nights and hours of devotion to solely one child. Each minute of my day is full of decisions that weigh heavily on my heart. Being intentional with my time is the only way I can move through this season and look back 6 months from now with no regretsšŸ™ƒ It’s acknowledging big emotions and understanding each family members needsšŸ«¶šŸ¼

It’s picking a child up early from school so we can enjoy a rainy day together. It’s putting off the paper until after bedtime because the girls needed their mama to be present. It’s putting down the ToDo list during nap and dancing in the rain with ElsiešŸ’— It’s writing pen pals and prioritizing family time. It’s date nights in after the girls go to bed ā¤ļø It’s late nights of homework and documenting and diagnosing. This season is temporary but it’s teaching me so much about being an intentional mother and partner🄹 They are my world and today, although it did not go how I originally planned, was pretty special and exactly what our hearts needed🄰

#girlmom #idahomom #motherhood #mastersdegree #idahocounseling #maternalmentalhealth mom guilt #momlife
My biggest honor is being their mamašŸ„¹šŸ’• I sp My biggest honor is being their mamašŸ„¹šŸ’•

I spent many Mothers Day’s with a broken heart. I always dreamed of being a mom and for years it felt like that would never happen for me. Elsie and Della are our miracles and today feels like I’m celebrating them finding their way to me too🄹 I’m far from perfect but each day with them is a gift and I’m so grateful to be theirsšŸ’— Thank you to all of the amazing moms in our lives both seen and unseen who have helped me become a mother and paved the way for me✨ Elsie and Della are so lucky to have so many amazing role models in their livesā¤ļø
4 Months with our Della RuešŸ’• Most days she doe 4 Months with our Della RuešŸ’•

Most days she doesn’t seem real🄹 Della is the smiliest baby and we adore her squinty eyed open mouth gummy smilešŸ˜ She is the best little sleeper and loves her starfish suite (iykykā­ļø) She loves her big sister and holding her handšŸ„¹šŸ’—
I am 1 in 6 women who are infertile. When we dec I am 1 in 6 women who are infertile. 

When we decided to grow our family 7 years ago I never expected the journey we were about to begin. Infertility has changed me to my core. It has impacted every aspect of my life just as I was told it would. It changed my marriage. It changed the way I think of motherhood. It made me become acquainted with grief. It changed the way I viewed my body. It opened my eyes to a world of waiting. It forced me to accept my limits. It encouraged me to find joy in the present. It taught me about Gods love. It showed me the only timing that matters is His. Infertility has broken me in ways I can’t begin to describe and has healed me in ways I never imaginedšŸ¤ This week is #nationalinfertilityawarenessweek so I’ll be sharing key moments in my infertility journey that have shaped me✨ For those on the outside looking in I hope my experiences give you insight on how to support and love your infertile friendsšŸ’— For those in the thick of it I hope my experiences help you not to feel so alone and perhaps a little hope when hope feels too hardšŸ’• 
Xx your infertile friend 

#infertility #infertilityjourney #infertilitysupport  motherhood #infertilitywarrior ivf #idahomom
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I am a 29 year old wife and mama living life in the beautiful Idaho countryside! Welcome to my online journal haha! Blogging has been such a beautiful outlet for me. I have always wanted to be a mom every since I can remember. I was the little toddler carrying around my “triplet babies” and always dreaming of raising my own family someday! Fast forward to college I married my high school sweetheart, Hudson, in 2017! We graduated from Utah State University, moved back home to Idaho, bought our first home and decided to officially “start” our family.

God had other plans for us. We were diagnosed with infertility and after years of unexplained infertility, failed IUI’s, negative tests we decided to walk away from fertility treatments and pursue adoption rather than IVF. We were blessed with a beautiful daughter through adoption and have been wrapped around her finger since the moment she took her first breath. Once she was a few years old we decided to fight for more answers regarding our “unexplained infertility” and my symptoms. Two surgeries later and I was officially diagnosed with Endometriosis and Adenomyosis. We pursued IVF abroad in Barbados after my last surgery and were blessed with 3 embryos. We transferred 2 and ended up loosing both early into pregnancy. Much of 2023 was spent healing from that loss. In May of 2024 we had the shock of our life when we found out we were miraculously pregnant naturally after 6 years of infertility.

We welcomed another beautiful baby girl to our family on January 5th. Being Elsie and Della’s parents is the biggest honor of our life. I love being a girl mama and welcome all the pink, sparkles, and laughter!! This blog is my journal to document my beautiful and messy journey in motherhood! I am so excited to share all the things from marriage, motherhood, getting my masters degree in counseling, fun projects, adventures, and growth that happens on the regular over here haha! Stay tuned for all the motherhood content and be sure to subscribe to never miss an update!

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We have a preschool graduatešŸ„¹šŸ˜­šŸ’—āœØ Elsie We have a preschool graduatešŸ„¹šŸ˜­šŸ’—āœØ

Elsie is our sunshine girl and it was sooooo fitting seeing her sing this little light of mine during her graduationā˜€ļø Our hearts are literally so full for Elsie and her love of school and learning!! I was SO scared to send Elsie to school and while there were some growing pains the first few weeks she adores her teacher and friends at school! She looked forward to going each day and loved sharing all of the things she learned with us🄹 I’m so grateful for the amazing school she attended and all the people that worked hard to make it such a positive experience for heršŸ˜­ā¤ļø She is so ready for kindergarten even if I’m dying a little inside at the thought of her being in elementary schoolšŸ™ˆ SO PROUD OF HER!! She is a light and will continue to be one at her new school too!!
2 years since the last time I dreamed of our life 2 years since the last time I dreamed of our life with them in itšŸ¤šŸ¤

2 years ago I sat through my appointment absolutely numb. Having given all that I could physically, mentally, financially, and spiritually I quite literally had hit rock bottom. I’ll never forget curling up on our bathroom floor once we got home and telling Hudson I hated myself. I absolutely meant every word. I’ve never felt like more of a failure than I did at that point in my life. Looking back my heart breaks thinking about just how responsible I felt.

I’ve learning that it wasn’t my fault. Nothing I could have done would have changed the outcome. It wasn’t some punishment. It wasn’t because I didn’t take my prenatal that one day. It happened and I’ll never understand why that had to be our story. That’s ok. I’ve learned that understanding ā€œwhyā€ isn’t a prerequisite to healing. 

There is a unique healing that has come through pregnancy with Della. Initially every fiber of me felt like I couldn’t do it. I couldn’t for them so why could I for her? Learning to hope again, sit with my fears, and make peace with the unknown has been an ongoing process for mešŸ¤ I learned that my body was still capable of beautiful things. Loss didn’t make that any less true. They changed me. Loosing them changed me. I am who I am because of them✨ It still hurts but I’m grateful for where I am today. They will always be my favorite what ifšŸ¤šŸ¤
Boat Babiesā˜€ļøšŸŒŠ Elsie on a boat is a total Boat Babiesā˜€ļøšŸŒŠ

Elsie on a boat is a total vibešŸ˜‚ She could stay out on the boat allllllll day long!!! Her new fav is tubing which is a big step up from last yearšŸ˜ And she even went surfing with dad🄰 Della is happiest when the boat is moving and has noooooo problem catching a few😓 Summer time is our fav and we are loving it so faršŸ¤
Life lately✨ ZoošŸ¦’ Gardening🌽 Swimming🌊 Life lately✨

ZoošŸ¦’ Gardening🌽 Swimming🌊 SisterhoodšŸ’• FiresšŸ”„ Cuddles🄰 Cotton CandyšŸ’— and Family🄹 Love this life of mineā¤ļøšŸ’•
Full Heart Full Houseā¤ļøšŸ’• I learned many ye Full Heart Full Houseā¤ļøšŸ’•

I learned many years ago that a full heart is where it begins… a heart of gratitude comes first. I don’t think I would have been able to enjoy motherhood if I hadn’t learned to have peace and love within myself firstšŸ’— Balancing life the last few months hasn’t been easy and there have been several tears as I’ve learned to find my new sense of normalšŸ˜… But I’ve been reminded that I’m only the best I can be when my heart is full🄹 So for the struggling mama I hope you can find time to rest, refuel, reflect and remember that your cup needs filled too so you can enjoy and savor the full home tooā¤ļø #motherhood Idaho #girlmom #maternalmentalhealth #idahotherapist #postpartumjourney #postpartumsupport
This season is full of intention…. Learning how This season is full of intention….

Learning how to be a mom of 2 littles + finishing up my masters degree + being a wife has been a big mindset shift for mešŸ¤ Gone are the easy date nights and hours of devotion to solely one child. Each minute of my day is full of decisions that weigh heavily on my heart. Being intentional with my time is the only way I can move through this season and look back 6 months from now with no regretsšŸ™ƒ It’s acknowledging big emotions and understanding each family members needsšŸ«¶šŸ¼

It’s picking a child up early from school so we can enjoy a rainy day together. It’s putting off the paper until after bedtime because the girls needed their mama to be present. It’s putting down the ToDo list during nap and dancing in the rain with ElsiešŸ’— It’s writing pen pals and prioritizing family time. It’s date nights in after the girls go to bed ā¤ļø It’s late nights of homework and documenting and diagnosing. This season is temporary but it’s teaching me so much about being an intentional mother and partner🄹 They are my world and today, although it did not go how I originally planned, was pretty special and exactly what our hearts needed🄰

#girlmom #idahomom #motherhood #mastersdegree #idahocounseling #maternalmentalhealth mom guilt #momlife
My biggest honor is being their mamašŸ„¹šŸ’• I sp My biggest honor is being their mamašŸ„¹šŸ’•

I spent many Mothers Day’s with a broken heart. I always dreamed of being a mom and for years it felt like that would never happen for me. Elsie and Della are our miracles and today feels like I’m celebrating them finding their way to me too🄹 I’m far from perfect but each day with them is a gift and I’m so grateful to be theirsšŸ’— Thank you to all of the amazing moms in our lives both seen and unseen who have helped me become a mother and paved the way for me✨ Elsie and Della are so lucky to have so many amazing role models in their livesā¤ļø
4 Months with our Della RuešŸ’• Most days she doe 4 Months with our Della RuešŸ’•

Most days she doesn’t seem real🄹 Della is the smiliest baby and we adore her squinty eyed open mouth gummy smilešŸ˜ She is the best little sleeper and loves her starfish suite (iykykā­ļø) She loves her big sister and holding her handšŸ„¹šŸ’—
I am 1 in 6 women who are infertile. When we dec I am 1 in 6 women who are infertile. 

When we decided to grow our family 7 years ago I never expected the journey we were about to begin. Infertility has changed me to my core. It has impacted every aspect of my life just as I was told it would. It changed my marriage. It changed the way I think of motherhood. It made me become acquainted with grief. It changed the way I viewed my body. It opened my eyes to a world of waiting. It forced me to accept my limits. It encouraged me to find joy in the present. It taught me about Gods love. It showed me the only timing that matters is His. Infertility has broken me in ways I can’t begin to describe and has healed me in ways I never imaginedšŸ¤ This week is #nationalinfertilityawarenessweek so I’ll be sharing key moments in my infertility journey that have shaped me✨ For those on the outside looking in I hope my experiences give you insight on how to support and love your infertile friendsšŸ’— For those in the thick of it I hope my experiences help you not to feel so alone and perhaps a little hope when hope feels too hardšŸ’• 
Xx your infertile friend 

#infertility #infertilityjourney #infertilitysupport  motherhood #infertilitywarrior ivf #idahomom
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So grateful for our family and our savioršŸ¤

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